How My Abortion Decision Deepened and Strengthened My Motherhood

2023-10-20 14:23:07

How Having An Abortion Made Me A Better Mother

Very few things can bring the realities of your life into focus like an unplanned pregnancy. It can be easy to ignore the red flags of a toxic relationship, for example, or treat your dwindling bank account like a funny joke rather than a serious problem.

So when I held that positive pregnancy test in my hands less than a year after I graduated from college, living paycheck to paycheck with my arguably alcoholic boyfriend, I knew exactly what I was going to do. I called my best friend, then I called my mom, then I called the Planned Parenthood a few blocks away and asked for an abortion.

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Ending my unwanted pregnancy was the immediate, unwavering plan, because I had a number of other life plans, too. I planned on ending the cycle of abuse that plagued my family, so there was no way I was going to raise a child with someone who made me feel like a rancid garbage can.

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I planned on becoming financially independent, unlike my mother, who was so reliant on my father's finances that leaving him was an impossibility. I planned on becoming a successful writer — a plan that I had made when I was a child obsessed with filling the pages of her many lock-and-key plastic journals.

And while I had never wanted to get married, I did plan on finding someone I could build a life with; someone who made me feel safe, and loved, and respected — the antithesis of the vast majority of the men in my life. Perhaps, that plan would include starting a family, in which case I intended to be the mom I wanted and needed to be, too.

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Abortion as Part of the Life Plan

Because abortion became part of my life plan, everything else I wanted to pursue came to fruition. I met my now-partner of eight years after writing a column for The Seattle Times about the woes of dating life. A year later, we welcomed our now-7-year-old son into the world — as bright-eyed then as he is now. Four years later, our youngest, now 2, was born — a fearless madcap who loves to give me "best hugs" and "kiss bigs."

“Because abortion became part of my life plan, everything else I wanted to pursue came to fruition.”

The majority of people who have abortions are parents. They already know what it's like to carry a pregnancy to term, go through the pains of labor and delivery, endure the sleeplessness and drastic change of postpartum life, and raise tiny, exhausting, adorable, frustrating humans. In fact, a 2004 survey of 1,209 abortion patients found that one in four said they had completed their childbearing, and 74 percent said having another child would inhibit their ability to care for the dependents they already had.

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Studies have also shown what happens to moms when they are denied abortion services — they're more likely to live in poverty, more likely to experience poor maternal bonding, and the children they already have are more likely to experience developmental consequences than their peers.

Those same studies found that when a person is denied access to abortion care, they're more likely to be tethered to an abusive partner — like I would have been. They're also less likely to have aspirational plans for the coming year — plans I had.

And they're more likely to suffer from low self-esteem and anxiety — an inevitable outcome I would have faced had I been trapped in an unhealthy relationship as I raised a child I didn't want and could not adequately care for.

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I wouldn't be the attentive and adoring mother I am today if it wasn't for my abortion and the providers, nurses, and clinicians who made it possible. My sons wouldn't have what every child deserves — a loving home filled with the food they need, toys they definitely don't need, and people who very much wanted them to come into the world.

My sons will never feel like they were government-mandated, a byproduct of anti-abortion laws that made them a "consequence of sex." Instead, they'll feel what I longed for when I was a kid — valued. Respected. Loved. Wanted.

I shudder to even consider what my life would look like — or the kind of mom I would be — if my abortion was not part of my family's plan. But because it was, I have my sons and they have me: a good mom.

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